A reckoning

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Northern Ireland. © E.A. Crunden

Northern Ireland. © E.A. Crunden

 

 


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Africa. Zimbabwe's military threatened to intervene in ongoing purges -- then orchestrated a coup. The head of Angola's state oil company was dismissed. Nigeria's army may quit training female soldiers. Bad news for elephants. 

Americas. Thousands protested a blanket abortion ban in Brazil. Venezuela's state electricity company is defaulting. Another mass shooting where the perpetrator had a history of domestic violence. FCC BAD SCENE. Men with progressive politics are also regressive. Massive oil spill in South Dakota

Asia & Australia. A massive earthquake killed hundreds of people along the Iran-Iraq border. Lebanon's prime minister says he is safe in Saudi Arabia. Another North Korean soldier defected to South Korea. Japan is set to simplify visa rules for India. A market airstrike killed more than 60 people in Syria. Australians voted via survey in favor of same-sex marriage (though the results are non-binding.) Thailand says it may hold elections next year. Cambodia's unraveling democracy. 

Europe. Brexit could damage UK food security and standards. Thousands of white nationalists marched in Poland last weekend, chanting Islamophobic and anti-Semitic slogans. Sexual assault charges are on the rise in France. Free press not doing A+ in Hungary.

 


Spoken & Written

“Pray for an Islamic Holocaust." -- One of the slogans written on signs at last weekend's march in Warsaw, Poland


Me

Journalism: Trump and Duterte bonded over their shared media feelings. Journalists in Poland also have reason to be concerned. Yemen's crisis is partly the fault of the U.S. All men. I spoke to Muslim, Jewish, LGBTQ, and other organizations about rising hate crimes -- all saw a link to Trump's rhetoric. Two churchgoers were injured by a gun in church during a discussion about guns in church. 

Anything goes:

What a week (I say this every week.) I ended yesterday on poor terms with a number of people after several weeks of sexual assault allegations finally overwhelmed me and I lost my shit. I've grown weary of people not minding their language or their reactions or prioritizing the individuals and communities that need it right now. If you aren't feeling personally triggered or traumatized right now, fine -- but always, ALWAYS assume someone in your proximity is. Center them. Keep your comments to yourself. Was Al Franken your favorite senator? Were you shocked your favorite comedian is in fact a vile human being? Are you amazed to learn millions of people live in constant terror of half the planet? Among other things, you should perhaps reconsider your heroes and your trust but regardless please know some of us are always afraid, never shocked, and weary of your surprise, your excuses, and your complicity. 

(What I mean to say is, you probably love a man -- who doesn't -- and you should probably be questioning him. Are you a man? You should probably be questioning yourself. If you aren't, you are the problem.)

(Are you a woman or an enby or another gender minority? Feel free to prioritize yourself. You owe a society that abuses and builds itself from your bones nothing.)

That's that and this is this: the final draft of my thesis is due a week from Monday, I'm going to (Eastern) Europe in less than a month and haven't planned anything, I'm moving on January 1 and I have no idea how. That's a lot at the end of a long year, but nothing this year came slowly or with consideration, so this is to be expected. My oven, however, is working, and for that I am very, very grateful. 

 

 

The margins bite back

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Richmond, Virginia. © E.A. Crunden

 

 


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Africa. Liberia's presidential run-off has been indefinitely postponed. Zimbabwean dictator Robert Mugabe fired his vice president for "disloyalty." South Sudanese refugees in Uganda are facing a horrifying predicament. The ICC will look into alleged Burundian war crimes (something Burundi rejects.) DRC has a year to hold elections and clean up its act.

Americas & Australia. Argentinian prosecutor Alberto Nisman was indeed probably murdered. Texas executed a Mexican citizen. The Trump administration is making it even harder for Americans to visit Cuba. Millions of Puerto Ricans lost power yet again. Twenty-six people were killed in Sutherland Springs, Texas when a gunman walked in and began shooting. An Alabama Senate candidate is accused of serial assault and harassment. 

Asia. The House of Saud went a little nuts last weekend. Trump visited several Asian countries this week, promising U.S. resolve on nuclear issues specifically and inking a number of contracts with China. Lebanon's prime minister resigned. Syria joined the Paris climate agreement. New Delhi's pollution is out of control. Egypt's anti-LGBTQ crackdown is just getting started

Europe. Catalonia's president surrendered to police. Poles continue to protest the erosion of democracy. Germany will recognize a third gender. One bad week for British Prime Minister Theresa May.

 


Spoken & Written

“I feel so sad, and I hate that actor that ruined this guy’s career. So, O.K., it happened 10 years ago ... Jesus, suck it up once in a while! I would like to ask [him] how it feels to lose a lifetime of success and hard work all because of 10 minutes of indiscretion 10 years or more ago.” -- Gay Talese on Kevin Spacey

 


Me

Journalism: Reactions to the Texas shooting are wildly different from the NYC attack. A country in the midst of a civil war is doing better on climate change than the United States. Tuesday night saw big wins for progressives -- and bodies on the margins. China doesn't like the media and neither does Trump. Delhi is experiencing "gas chamber"-like pollution -- no thanks to the United States.

Anything goes:

Our oven and stove are fixed. We signed a lease on a new apartment (our dream apartment, really) starting January 1. We're heading off to Philly for the weekend. A lot went wrong this week and my head's all over the place, but these are good things, important things. So, heading off on a train, trying to focus on the bright things at the end of a dark year. Calming thoughts to all. 

 

No country for good men

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Great Falls, Virginia. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Kenya's president won re-election in a controversial re-do. Anti-poaching efforts in Mali are working. Eritrean forces killed 28 protesters in Asmara, the nation's capital. Protesters abroad rallied against the Eritrean regime. An American citizen is being charged over a tweet criticizing Zimbabwe dictator Robert Mugabe. 

Americas. Hundreds of armed men attacked Brazil's environmental agencies. Cuba-U.S. relations are back to suckingManafort Monday. Eight people were killed when a man drove a truck into them and then pulled out two handguns in New York City. The Virgin Islands are still facing a crisis. A billionaire shut down a number of local news sites after they voted to unionize, taking down DCist and Gothamist in the process. No prison for Bowe Bergdahl. 

Asia & Australia. As Australia moves to shutdown its brutal detention centers, refugees are calling for an end to mistreatment and assurances about their futures. Australia cracked down on Uluru climbing. The Iraqi Kurdish president stepped down following a failed independence bid. Saudi bombs continue to strike Yemen.

Europe. Madrid took over Catalonia following a failed bid for independence. Sexual harassment scandals are rocking Britain's parliament. France's state of emergency finally ended, but many are worried replacement measures aren't much better. 

 


Spoken & Written

“In many species, males tend to do somewhat stupid things that end up getting them killed in silly ways, and it appears that may have been true for mammoths also.” -- Love Dalén, an evolutionary biologist

 


Me

Journalism: The Whitefish scandal is only the latest mess linked to Interior Secretary Ryan Zinke. The Trump administration doesn't want a new AUMF vote. After NYC, Trump is calling for extreme policy measures -- but they won't work. The shooting you probably missed. A DACA deal could come at the expense of diversity visas. "Good guys with guns" only made things worse in Colorado.

Anything goes:

There are a lot of things I know to be true of myself, but here's one I conveniently like to forget: I'm overly sensitive and I take things very personally. That is to say, thesis revisions have been a struggle for me. I began my program planning to focus on journalism and related nonfiction writing -- I was trying to become a reporter, writing for free for an online publication, blogging, and plugging away on this newsletter, and my masters program seemed like a potential solution. Part-time, entirely covered by loans, and over in two years. Then, I thought, I could head to a publication where my words would met with payment, and all the work would be worth it.

Things went differently -- I went to work for a publication full-time only four months into my masters program, which turned out to be very memoir-heavy. I'm a contrarian but I'm also a people-pleaser; my professors and classmates wanted words about me, not really so much about the world, and so I gave them myself. I've regretted that a lot but that's neither here nor there -- I'm just over a month away from the end of all this and a much-dreaded thesis reading and then I'll be done and this will be behind me. But the weeks between me and that time are looming large, made no better by the feedback on the stories. Criticism is valuable; I balk at it, but it's definitely made me a better writer. But how can you really assess difference of opinion? Life experience? 

One of my essays for this nightmare hell project deals a lot with good and bad, with Austin and Texas, with perceptions and prejudices and stereotypes and the pitfalls stemming from all these things. That was hurdle one; I've overhauled it several times and it seems more convincing than it was before, although I still feel 'misunderstood' for lack of a better complaint. (To be clear: I am someone who feels 'misunderstood' a lot, whether true or not.) The other thorn in my side is the essay I knew would cause problems -- a running, warbling rant about families and my exhaustion with people who refuse to acknowledge the flaws inherent within the structures they consider integral. I knew no one would like this essay (I'm a person in the world with virtually no family ties; I am WELL aware how other people react to that situation) but I wasn't expecting quite the level of defensiveness and pushback. I don't know that anyone reacts well to being told they're condescending and unforgiving but I've had a disproportionately bad reaction -- I've spent the past two days in an ongoing sulk, with my #2 looking anxiously at me and offering tentative shoulder squeezes.

This will pass, of course. Living with high anxiety and intense depression means my world seems on the verge of ending once a week on average, several times a day during particularly bad spells. Feeling on the verge isn't really new for me. I just want it to be over, to accelerate to a time where my thoughts and memories aren't subject to people with pens and their own opinions, telling me how well and convincingly I've articulated experiences I shouldn't have to defend. But time passes, blink and it will be January. In this instance, at least, that's comforting to me. 

 

Heat's out

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Richmond, Virginia. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. A suicide bomber killed 13 people in Nigeria. Kenya's election disaster is somehow worsening. In South Africa, apartheid never really ended. Over a hundred people have died from plague in Madagascar. 

Americas. The body of an Argentinian indigenous rights activist was found. After decades, Colombians enjoy the fruits of their own labor. Nicaragua signed the Paris agreement. The U.S. introduced absurd new refugee limitations in addition to new flight measures. Trump finally declared the opioid crisis an emergency. So many men are terrible.

Asia & Australia. Japan's prime minister sailed to re-election. Australia is cracking down on airport security. Australia's birther controversy is somewhat amazing. An arrest warrant has been issued for former Pakistani Prime Minister Nawaz Sharif. Dozens of people died in a fireworks factory fire in Indonesia. Being queer in Egypt is set to become even harder.

Europe. Northern Irish citizens will be able to obtain fully-funded abortions in England soon. France's sexual harassment crisis is staggering among politicians. An obsessive man attacked a progressive journalist with a knife in Moscow, stabbing her in the neck. Catalonia's political crisis exploded, with Spain taking the semi-independent region under control following a failed strike for independence. 

 


Spoken & Written

“The President has great difficulty with the truth on many issues.” -- Senator Bob Corker (R-TN)

 


Me

Journalism: Betsy DeVos didn't understand critical disability legislation; now she's rolling back guidance aimed at helping students with disabilities. An undocumented teenager was due an abortion, asap, and she got one -- but hundreds of others are stuck in limbo. The U.S. government would like to make that a problem for U.S. citizens as well as undocumented immigrants. The White House is open to "moderate" Taliban members joining the Afghan government. The new U.S. ambassador to Canada believes in "both sides" of the climate change debate. Russian journalists at the country's leading opposition publication may soon come armed

Anything goes:

Eating well has been a struggle the past month or so, something that intensified this past week. The bake function of our oven went out the week of Rosh Hashanah, in September, and last Sunday, the rest of the massive square -- stove and broiler functions included -- also blew, sending a shower of sparks and emitting smoke. Apparently the oven is 14 years old, so this was inevitable, but that hasn't made it bearable. The process of getting it fixed has been taxing and prolonged; in the interim, we've been eating out almost exclusively, and going long spurts without cooking, baking, or bonding over food.

That's been unhealthy, largely because we predominately consume bougie farmer's market produce and all the pricey niceties two decent-paying jobs in a prominent city can buy you, and also because I am the only Jew alive with an aversion to salt, something rarely found in our food at home and nearly always found in every dish served elsewhere. As a result, I am nearly always thirsty these days and my face is caving in on itself.

It's also been a strange shift for our relationship; our days are long, 2017 is long, and we've spent a lot of it cooking and baking and bonding over the things we can create, with and for each other.

I've never been someone who loved food, which is part of a longer story I don't need to get into. Learning to appreciate it has been a long process, as has sorting out my own health problems and trying to find a bearable relationship with the things that sustain me. As a 26 year-old I seem to have found at least somewhat of a compromise -- I spend more on quality groceries than I might otherwise, and I devote far more time to preparing food and making it appealing than I might otherwise. That's become therapeutic; it's a relaxing thing, chopping and stirring and blending and browning, only to have something empowering at the end, some kind of nourishment to fuel a family (even a very, very small one like mine).

But that's been an impossibility this week, worsening a situation I already thought was semi-unbearable. The oven being broken comes in the midst of thesis revisions and disputes, PIC's new job, stress over visas and sponsorship and crackdowns, and my own, ongoing state of exhaustion struggling to cover the news in a year where most of the news is constant and terrible. Staring at the defunct black shape, I keep finding myself wishing I could make something, channel my energy into creation and sustenance. Much like this year more broadly, it just stares back at me, defiantly, continuing to exist despite its own inefficiency. How is it only nearly November?

 

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A highway in Richmond, Virginia. © E.A. Crunden

A highway in Richmond, Virginia. © E.A. Crunden

 

 


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Africa. Almost 300 people were killed in Somalia after a devastating twin bombing. Liberia's presidential election went to a runoff. The U.N. wants 900 extra peacekeepers sent to CAR. Somalia is one of the worst countries for death by pollution

Americas. Venezuela barred opposition governors from taking office. The Palestinian mission in Colombia called for the end of Israel. NAFTA talks are hurting the Mexican economy and are not going well for any North American nation. Deportations are troubling Texas schools. Trump's travel ban 3.0 was denied again. Life in Puerto Rico remains a nightmare.

Asia. Plague may be breaking out across Seychelles. Iraqi troops clashed with Kurds; the Kurds, meanwhile, retook Raqqa from ISIS. How a raid on an Afghan village went terribly wrong. It was a week of horrifying violence in Afghanistan. India is grappling with its yearly Diwali pollution problem. Xi Jinping, China's leader, is sailing to what could be a very long term. Things are worsening every day for Egypt's LGBTQ community. Japan heads to vote.

Europe. A hurricane came for Ireland this week. Austria has a fun new terrifying young leader. An investigative reporter was assassinated in Malta. Spain is imposing rule on Catalonia following the region's independence efforts. The Czech Republic is getting its own conservative billionaire leader.

 


Spoken & Written

"“He is a thundercloud. He is quicksand. He is a deep bog.” For the last time, men are not the weather. You are not the weather." -- Alexandra Petri for the Washington Post


Me

Journalism: California's wildfires don't seem to have moved POTUS. He does have time to keep blaming Puerto Rico for the island's problems, though. The State Department contradicted Trump's claims on Cuba. NAFTA talks ain't going well, y'all. Questions are growing after a deadly ambush in Niger. One Texas city has a strange requirement for those seeking hurricane relief funds. Spain's constitutional crisis is worsening. Five former presidents united for hurricane relief; the current president was at his golf course

Anything Goes:

I have a lot to say at the moment, but not a lot of patience. My weeks are typically long and overly eventful; I write for a living and I am paid to follow the news cycle. In 2017 in the United States, that's a lot. I'm also a person with a past and a present -- the things I follow impact me and bring things up. A lot from this past week will stick with me in weeks to come but I think the highlight will be that after a lifetime of abuse at the hands of masculine people a (cis, white, straight, well-off, able, American, etc) woman sent me a messageoffering a strident defense of men. (I called them trash. I stand by that statement.) I wasn't in the mood to respond so I didn't. My silence spoke for itself, I hope. What a worthless fucking thing to say. What a pointless fucking thing to say.

Stop defending privilege. Take accountability. We will never sleep if we do not do these things. And I am not going to save people who do not want to be saved.

Other things. I'm supposed to be working on my thesis, supposed to being the operative word. But now I actually am, which is something. Revision and editing is an important process but it's one I hate. Like most people I respond poorly to criticism; I'm overly sensitive in addition to defensive, which is to say this process isn't going very smoothly. But, it's going. For now that's something. Meanwhile the District is getting its first spurts of cool weather after a lifetime of summer. This autumn soul is ready for cold nights and long sleeves -- for me, the best of times.  

 

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© E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Ongoing debate over Kenya's election has resulted in yet more violence; the country's opposition leader said he would not partake in a redo of the election. Tunisia's health minister died of a heart attack. Liberia goes to the polls. Ethiopia is devaluing its currency. Anthrax could be killing hippos in Botswana. 

Americas. Harvey Weinstein was fired from his company. The Trump administration proposed a hardline deal in exchange for temporary amnesty for hundreds of thousands of young undocumented immigrants. Goodbye to the Clean Power Plan. Wildfires ravaged Northern California, killing more than 30 people. Trump wants more nukes. Trump took steps to gut the ACA. The U.S. quit UNESCO and Trump decertified the Iran deal.

Asia. China supports the Iran Deal. Yemen's horrifying civil war is leaving its citizens with few options. Dozens of people died amid landslides in Vietnam. An American-Canadian couple held by militants were freed with help from the Pakistani army. India took a major step towards enforcing consent and protecting young girls.

Europe. Protesters marched in support of a unified Spain; meanwhile Catalonia put independence on hold. Hate crimes against U.K. mosques have doubled in the past year. People still really don't want to Brexit. Greece has a new gender law.

 


Spoken & Written

"I will tell you I left Texas and I left Florida and I left Louisiana and I went to Puerto Rico and I met with the President of the Virgin Islands." - U.S. President Donald Trump, president of the U.S. Virgin Islands

 


Me

Journalism: The Trump administration unveiled a non-starter list of demands in exchange for protecting DREAMers. Around the world, indigenous people face an uphill battle. U.S.-Turkey relations are the latest casualty of Trump's erratic foreign policy. Trump is threatening to withdraw aid from Puerto Rico. FEMA avoided confirming whether or not reports of food shortages on the island are valid. Recovery efforts on the island will take a very long time; activists aren't waitingBye bye, UNESCO.

Anything goes:

It wasn't a good week and I am very tired and I have a thesis due in a month and a half, essentially. Here is a song

 

In the riot and the rush

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Great Falls. © E.A. Crunden

Great Falls. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Kenya's heated election drama continues. Several U.S. Green Berets were killed in Niger. The U.S. is getting set to lift sanctions on Sudan. Madagascar is dealing with, wait for it, a bout of plague. Gas blasts killed several people in Accra, Ghana. A crackdown on queer Egyptians has left the country's LGBTQ community terrified. 

Americas. Jagmeet Singh just made history in Canada. Five people were injured in Alberta, Canada over the weekend, part of what may have been an act of extremism. At least 22 people died across Central America as Tropical Storm Nate blew by. People on the Virgin Islands are livid with the U.S. government's response. Fifteen Cuban diplomats were expelled from Washington as drama continues to grow between the two countries. At least 59 people were killed and more than 400 wounded after a gunman opened fire on a casino concert in Las Vegas, Nevada. The Trump administration rolled back protections for transgender workers and birth control coverage for people who need it. White supremacists returned to Charlottesville, Virginia.

Asia. The Palestinian Authority is making moves to take over the Gaza strip. In Cambodia, authoritarianism is creeping. Iraqi forces retook Hawija, ISIS' last significant urban space. The Iran Deal could be toast, because we can't have nice things. Malaysia reckons with ISIS. The most polluted village in the world.

Europe. Two people were killed in a knife attack in Marseille, France. At least 900 people were injured in a vicious crackdown by Spanish police as Catalonia voted for independence. Same-sex marriage is now legal in Germany. Putin critic Aleksei Navalny has been sentenced to prison time yet again. Everything about the alleged murder of Kim Wall is horrifying.

 


Spoken & Written

"We will keep coming back!" -- White nationalist Richard Spencer, back in Charlottesville, Virginia this weekend.

 


Me

Journalism: Trump's response to the Las Vegas shooting was very different than his standard reaction -- here's why. Las Vegans rushed to help one another after the tragedy. When we talk about mass shootings, we are talking about white men. Trump visited Puerto Rico, where he complained about the cost of rebuilding the devastated colony. Americans aren't happy with the White House's handling of the tragedy. Lawmakers are playing games with the health care of nine million children and many expecting parents. The U.S. Virgin Islands go ignored.

Anything Goes:

These days, everything is about the time spent between waking and making it back into bed, which has become my only real goal. Exhaustion is a reality of journalism in 2017, as well as of my life -- I have a full-time job, a thesis due in presentable form by December, too many side projects, and not enough time or energy for anything. Finding the space for things feels like an exercise in futility; my weekends are my only free time but they're now dominated by thesis, while my weekdays are a sprint spent pouring over topics I become an amateur expert on for one to two weeks at a time until another news story breaks and then off I go, to learn a new area. Jack of all trades, master of none, etc.

There are some other things I'd like to say, like how it was a terrible week to be a gender minority while well-meaning friends and others spoke about how "women" and "ladies" were affected, how my complaints were flippantly dismissed even by close friends, how I felt unusually small and vulnerable in the spaces I occupy for a number of reasons, virtually all of them relating to my body and how it operates and how precarious it always feels. But I have to spend a day editing my thesis and, again, there goes my energy, so now I don't have the time, again. 

 

Atonement

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Vegan life in Atlanta, Georgia. © E.A. Crunden

Vegan life in Atlanta, Georgia. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Chad is very confused about being on Trump's travel ban (and France is not into it.) Around 100,000 Nigerian refugees were deported from Cameroon. In South Africa, thousands marched against corruption. Boko Haram is impacting schools in Nigeria. 

Americas. Montreal says goodbye to Uber. Chelsea Manning was not allowed to enter Canada. Aftershock tremors made earthquake rescue efforts harder in Mexico. This really weird and ever-growing Cuba story has everyone baffled. Puerto Rico is in crisis after Hurricane Maria, with little help from the mainland. The U.S. Virgin Islands is facing a health care crisis. A rural pregnancy and birth crisis is breaking out across the U.S. NFL drama. Trump debuted a new travel ban. DHS wants to surveil the social media of immigrants and those who keep company with immigrants. Trumpcare died again. Hugh Hefner has also died. High-level Trump administration officials have been getting into some real shenanigans and now Price is out.

Asia & Australia. Bali, Indonesia might be facing a volcanic eruption. Australia is eyeing creating a space agency. There was some question this week over whether the U.S. declared war on North Korea over Twitter. Saudi Arabia is finally set to let women drive. Kurdistan votes for independence. Azerbaijan's LGBTQ community is facing harsh crackdowns. Egypt is cracking down on queer rights after a rainbow flag flew at a Mashrou' Leila concert. At least 22 people were killed in a stampede in Mumbai. Pollution in Gaza is taking away the one escape residents had: the sea.

Europe. Angela Merkel remains chancellor of Germany. Ireland's abortion referendum is coming. Irish protesters called for abortion rights this weekend. Spain is going head-to-head with Catalonia over the region's referendum. 

 


Spoken & Written

"Pretty black and white." -- White House press secretary Sarah Huckabee Sanders on the NFL #TakeAKnee protests.

 


Me

Journalism: Trump spent his time tweeting about football while Puerto Rico's national humanitarian crisis grew. Then he addressed the issue -- by blaming Puerto Rico. Which is being hindered by the Jones Act, everyone's new favorite shipping regulation. Puerto Ricans say Trump has failed themNo one understands why Trump banned Chad. Saudi Arabia is letting women drive, a credit to feminists -- but definitely not to the kingdom, which has other motives. Texas is denying Houston hurricane recovery funds.

Anything Goes:

This weekend is Yom Kippur, the holiest day in the Jewish calendar. I wouldn't say it's a fun day -- I can go 26 or so hours without food but once water and coffee are subtracted it becomes an ordeal, one I don't look forward to. But reflection, atonement, and forgiveness are crucial components of my faith, and I welcome the opportunity to renew my commitment to Judaism, as much as to myself and the people around me. 

That having been said, I've marked this Yom Kippur without my usual enthusiasm, probably because it's been an indescribably exhausting 2017 and my usual zeal for a clean slate has been replaced by a sneaking feeling that my weekends might be better spent treating myself to what I want in a world that wants me to have none of what I want. Even sitting through services I found myself growing resentful at the unfairness of Jews begging for forgiveness (or anyone on the margins begging for forgiveness, really) at a time when people who do not think Jews (and so many others) are even people are in power. 

Of course, Yom Kippur isn't a time for resenting the other. It's a time for cleansing the self, something I've been struggling to remember this year, when the self has seemed like a distant priority at a time when the collective is suffering so visibly. It's also a time for apology and righting wrongs. Staring at images of Puerto Rico, going through hell with no relief in sight, it hasn't been hard to see where my tzedakah funds should go, but I do wonder what will come later and how to keep up the momentum. Atonement comes once a year, but how do we spend the rest of it? When do we apologize and how? Those questions have been dominating my thoughts and really, I have no answers. 

 

New year, same fear

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Happy new year from our family to yours! © E.A. Crunden

Happy new year from our family to yours! © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. DRC forces killed more than 30 Burundian refugees. Flooding in DRC is also wreaking havoc and driving up casualties. Dozens of arrests were made in Zanzibar over alleged homosexuality. A suicide bombing killed 15 people in Nigeria. Kenya continues its election follow-up (and rebuttal.) 

Americas. A gay conversion therapy decision prompted outrage in Brazil. Mexico suffered another crushing earthquake, with over 273 casualties reported. Asylum seekers are still fleeing the U.S. for Canada. Puerto Rico, slammed by Hurricane Maria, could be without power for months. The U.N. General Assembly kicked off this week in New York. Protests raged across St. Louis, Missouri after yet another white police officer was acquitted in the murder of a Black man. The U.S. is getting set to scale back national monuments. Protests continued to rage across St. Louis. Once again, Sen. John McCain of Arizona has killed Trump's health care dreams -- for now.

Asia. India's misogynistic WhatsApp groups. A typhoon left several dead in Japan. Cambodia's spat with the U.S. is deepening. Debates over the Kurdish independence referendum are intensifying. Burmese leader Aung San Suu Kyi failed to condemn military violence against the Rohingya. Japan has two million residents over the age of 90. Brb googling "dotard." 

Europe. France has been pushing the U.S. not to withdraw from the Paris climate accord. The country also has its own drama, over labor reforms. Drama over Catalan independence efforts is going about as well as you might imagine. Chancellor Angela Merkel is set to win re-election in Germany -- but the real story is the rise of a terrifying far-right party. Uber is getting kicked out of London.


 

Spoken & Written

"...love to see one of these NFL owners, when somebody disrespects our flag, to say, ‘Get that son of a bitch off the field right now, he’s fired?’” -- President Donald Trump, referring to Colin Kaepernick. 


 

Me

Journalism: Hate crimes skyrocketed last year. Back-and-forth on DACA is making life even harder for DREAMers. Trump's U.N. speech was riddled with inaccuracies. Burma's leader tried to blame both sides for the Rohingya genocide. Linguistic mastermind Sergey Lavrov was really excited about Trump's speech. U.S. Jews are anxious and paranoid as the holidays arrive. Earthquake preparedness: a fun topic you should become familiar with!

Anything Goes:

I'm out of town this weekend (PIC's birthday falls between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, which has made planning anything hard, so we took the one shot we got) with not a lot to say -- I love being in the South, even the very near South, and I'm especially happy to be in Southern Queer Spaces. There is a lot else to say -- I'm terrified about my thesis, my future, the world, sad for Mexico, Puerto Rico, and so many other places, and really just a mess of emotions as usual -- but for now I am trying to find vegan brunch so I will just say a happy new year to you and yours, even if it isn't new year for you, and I hope you go forth to do good deeds this day. 

 

Aftermath

Blues Buzz

RIP Edie Windsor, a lioness of a woman and a champion for queer people across the U.S. Rhea Butcher on Edie. Images of Edie and Thea in love, and why it matters. One of Australia's "stolen generation" became a celebrated poet. The socialist experiment in Jackson, Mississippi. Female Viking warriors. What medieval historians have in common with Taylor Swift. Celeste Ng and Nicole Chung in conversation. On prayer and poetry. Where progressives fail on intersectionality and identity politics. Masha Gessen: immigrants shouldn't have to be 'talented' to be acceptedMan Booker list. On the disappearance of fireflies. The enduring lessons of communist Poland. When you're genderqueer but your native language is gendered. The great nutrient collapseCleaning the house to stave off grief. More Myles. Hiroshima, the Holocaust, and what it means to be a survivor. Something sweet for the new year.

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© E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Seventeen people were killed after an al Shabab attack in Somalia. Ghana began a program offering free secondary school education. Anti-government protests are raging in Togo. In Sierra Leone, resistance to rehousing efforts remains an ongoing issue after a landslide displaced tens of thousands.

Americas. Venezuelans are now being encouraged to eat rabbits, something many labeled a "bad joke" by President Nicolas Maduro. A queer art exhibition was canceled in Brazil after opposition from right-wing protesters. The president of Brazil has been charged with obstruction of justice. Members of an uncontacted tribe were reportedly massacred by gold miners in Brazil. Hurricane Irma blasted through the Caribbean before hitting the mainland United States, lashing Florida. Islands are still traumatized after Irma. Health care plans abound with no end in sight.

Asia. In Burma, things have gone from terrible to even worse for the Rohingya. Rohingya in Pakistan are livid as they watch the crisis play out. Pour one out for Yair Netanyahu. North Korea faces its toughest-ever sanctions and also fired another missile over Japan. Twenty-four people were killed in Malaysia when a fire broke out at a school. Tunisian women are now free to marry non-Muslims.

Europe. Europe (+ larger NATO) is beefing up for potential war with Russia. The stateless former president of Georgia arrived in Ukraine. French leader Emmanuel Macron is dodging labor protests and uproar. Norway's right-wing government won re-election. Poland violated an E.U.-imposed logging ban in an ancient forest. An explosion hit the London metro system on Friday, injuring numerous people but causing no fatalities. 


Spoken & Written

“I was never her nurse—I’m her lover! I was just doing things to make her comfortable—and that was with loving her and digging her.” -- Edie Windsor, who died this week, on her marriage to Thea Spyer. 

 


Me

Journalism: Amid silence from Trump, Mexico pivots away from international aid to focus on its own crises. One widow's story highlights how much all immigrants, documented or otherwise, are struggling under Trump. On the U.S. Virgin Islands, residents feel abandoned by the mainland after Irma. Buried in the census data is some bad news about income inequality. War games in Russia yay fun! California is one step closer to recognizing non-binary gender. The Trump administration's immigration policies were dealt yet another blow. The new Republican health care effort also seems terrible, water is wet, etc.

Anything Goes:

To say last week was exhausting would be to understate a thing and so I will not. Instead I will just say this -- I am grateful for all of the language I've gained over the course of the past ten years or so. When I left home (and in the time before it, when things were crumbling) I never had the words for what was happening. In the years that followed, I also lacked vocabulary much of the time, something that did damage -- how do you talk about trauma if you can't even call it that? These days I can and do recognize when things have gone wrong, when they don't feel right, when everything is soaring south at breakneck speed. Being able to talk about that is a blessing; I am lucky.

What else to say apart from that? The dreaded thesis is upon me, work is moving quicker than ever, I am even more tired than I was when this year started and when it started I did not think that was a thing that was possible. But again I have to think about these things in terms of luck -- to be employed at all is a blessing (and doing what I want, at that), and soon school will be over with (so, so soon.) Once the hurricane that ripped through my life this week settled (what a time for hurricanes; they are everywhere now) everything seemed to calm and now we've gone to the farmer's market and there are colorful things in my fridge again and also I've enjoyed a few cups of coffee and the weather is growing cooler. All of which is to say that I think I am reaching the age where I am becoming better at weathering natural disasters and that is a relief.

Last but not least, I have been pondering going to Hungary and Poland for a bit when this heinous thing (the thesis -- all 72 pages of it in draft form) is done, and I think I've decided to just do it, so there is that. 

 

Natural disaster

Blues Buzz

Texas the surprise. All-male movie pitches. The reverend and the rabbi. Harvey taught the country about Houston. Poets respond to the end of DACA. Muslim DACA recipients feel like the most unwelcome people in the U.S. RIP Kate Millet. A tough summer to be a Jew

Atlanta, Georgia. © E.A. Crunden

Atlanta, Georgia. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. U.N. investigators accused Burundi's government of crimes against humanity. A leading critic of Rwandan President Paul Kegame has been jailed. Kenya will have a new presidential election. Conflict in CAR continues to spiral.

Americas. Mexico was hit by the strongest earthquake to strike the country in a century. The Pope is in Colombia. Former Brazilian presidents Luiz Inacio Lula da Silva and Dilma Rousseff were charged in a spiraling corruption case. The ELN rebel group and the Colombian government have announced a ceasefire. Hurricane Irma slammed through numerous small islands (doing a ridiculous amount of damage) before hitting the mainland U.S. The Equifax crisis. The White House announced an end to DACA, a program that shielded 800,000 young undocumented immigrants from deportation. Fifteen states and D.C. will sue over the decision.

Asia & Australia. North Korea tested a sixth nuclear bomb, sparking condemnation around the world. Syria's government broke a years-long siege by ISIS on Deir el-Zour. Indian journalist Gauri Lankesh, a critic of the government, was murdered in Bangalore. Israeli jets targeted the Syrian government.

Europe. Macedonia is mourning the death of linguist and activist Ognen Čemerski. The E.U. says Slovakia and Hungary are just going to have to accept refugees. Catalonia, Spain, will hold an independence referendum on October 1. Australia's contentious same-sex marriage survey is a go.


 

Spoken & Written

"When we are with G-d, there are no borders. Man made borders on this earth." -- Rita Ruiz de Guillen, whose son Alonso, a DACA recipient, was killed while helping people during Hurricane Harvey in Texas.


 

Me

Journalism: The White House has put 800,000 young people in danger. The Republicans who won't pass a clean fix for DACA. Students staged protests and walk-outs in the wake of the decision. Trump's policies will make recovering from disasters like Irma much harder for developing areas

Anything Goes:

What a week. Hurricanes and earthquakes and wildfires everywhere, while my head is still pounding from a lack of sleep. Next week begins thesis editing, we're drawing nearer to the High Holy Days, at some point soon we'd like to move apartments, work is frantic, life is frantic, and in all of this I haven't been sleeping or tending to myself in any way. Last night I half-heartedly pulled up therapy resources yet again, a small acknowledgement to the impact I know trauma can have (will have.) As usual I fixated on the price, the time commitment, the vague unknown of it; the tab is still open, and that's all I have to offer you about the subject.

In the lead up to the New Year I always think a lot about good and evil, right and wrong, how to live, how to act, how to be. To say 2017 has felt like that lead up drawn out over nine months so far is to understate something -- we are all well aware, I know, that we are living in dark times. But they feel more ominous recently, perhaps because we're moving into fall, and nature itself will be darker. I live for this sort of weather, but not these times, so there is a conflict playing out of sorts. Mostly I hate the unknown, a sad fact of life and an inevitability in eras like this one. But what to do about that? What is unknown next week will be known soon; this pattern will follow until it doesn't. This year feels like coming down a mountain at breakneck speed, hitting every single thing around along the way. The end is far from over, but what comfort is that?

The real problem, I think, with this current bump along the road in this year of fire and flood is that it has disrupted my patterns. Morning coffee, cooking projects, bike rides, trips to nature, travels -- these are the things I rely on to set everything into alignment again. But schedules and lives are such right now that I have neither the time nor the space to do what I need to in order to feel calm. When turtles are stuck on their backs, their feet kick the air frantically, trying to right themselves. That's how I feel; kicking the air, making no progress, exposed, while a sense of panic sets in. The best descriptor I can manage at the moment. 

A swift rollercoaster ride

Blues Buzz

Texans show up for each other in a time of crisis. The mosques opening their doors to evacuees on a holiday. Public and private disaster in Houston. Reading Jane Eyre while black. Texas forever. New Hemon. Jhumpa Lahiri on Italy and falling in love with a city. These dudes clearly do not understand what Lord of the Flies was actually about. Appalachia's war cry.

The Castro, San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden

The Castro, San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. In South Sudan, the U.N. is working to protect citizens. Kenya is taking striding measures against the use of plastic bags. In less exciting news, Kenya also threw out the results of last month's presidential election. In CAR, a Catholic bishop is protecting 2,000 Muslims.

Americas. Canada introduced a gender-neutral X option on passports. Opposition figures are being targeted with alarming frequency in Venezuela. Colombia's FARC rebels are making moves towards becoming a political party. Corruption in Guatemala is spiraling. Two laws that would have targeted immigrants and people seeking abortions were respectively halted in Texas. Which is good, because Texas is reeling from the horrifying impact of Hurricane Harvey, which has claimed dozens of lives and destroyed much of the state's southeastern region, including the sprawling Houston.

Asia. A bomb in Helmand, Afghanistan killed at least 13 people. Violence erupted in India after a famed guru was found guilty of raping his followers. Tempers may finally be cooling between China and India. Flooding across South Asia has displaced 41 million people and killed over a thousand. Mumbai's apartments are falling apart as a result. Burma's minority Rohingya community is becoming more and more precarious. Syria's dictator looks poised to consolidate control as Western countries lose interest.

Europe. Britain's Labour party wants an extended Brexit. In a deeply unpopular move, France's Prime Minister Emmanuel Macron is getting set to overhaul the country's labor laws. Jews are concerned over rising anti-Semitism in Poland.


 

Spoken & Written

“They are the number one priority. They will not be disturbed, they will not be displaced, they will not be moved. People who come, if they have to pray in the parking lot, they’ll pray in the parking lot.” M.J. Khan, the president of the Islamic Society of Greater Houston.


Me

Journalism: Mexico is ready to help Texas, definitely not paying for the wall. Texans became heroes as Harvey raged. Harvey could worsen and it did. South Asia is also hurting because of climate change. For Katrina survivors, Harvey's toll could be even worse. SB4 was halted late Wednesday night. Well, we're back to U.S.-North Korea drama

Anything Goes:

This week saw some of the most intense highs and lows I've experienced this year and I'm still processing. Southeastern Texas is under water; I watched alerts and updates from loved ones fly past me on the internet all week, while footage of sobbing Texans flashed across the TV screens that surround me at work. It was traumatizing but also captivating -- I kept watching, hoping that if I wrote about everything, got it all down, I would feel closer to home, as opposed to sitting in D.C., feeling useless.

The week ended with terror over DACA, the repeal of which would hurt even more people, ruin even more lives. I sat on Friday, in a state of suspended horror, waiting for some new fresh hell to unfold, worrying about loved ones and unknown ones and all of the bodies put in danger this year. In that way, it was a week like many of the weeks we've all marked since January.

But it was also completely different. My favorite person in all things has been waiting for months (years, really; when does the process of wanting something begin? how do you measure waiting?) to hear back from jobs. International students in the U.S. have only so much time to apply and wait; at a certain point, the clock runs out. This happened last time and we were devastated. This year has felt like deja vu, that same creeping dread. But on Friday we sat waiting on a call (would she get it? wouldn't she?) and then beams abounded, we ordered drinks, we're spending a weekend celebrating and toasting our good fortune. It seems we'll have at least another year before these conversations come up again and, H1B lottery providing, maybe even longer.

It seems terrible to feel joyful while other people are suffering. I don't know how to multitask these things -- the personal win, the personal loss, the more removed loss that comes from any sort of empathy towards others. Even in posting good news to friends I felt the need to make caveats. To be clear I do think this is how it should be; your joy does not necessarily counter another's pain, and no one inherently deserves anything more or less than anyone else. So to that end, I am very glad to have a reason for joy, and I hope everyone else, especially those most precarious right now, soon will to. 

Home is a hurricane

Washington, D.C. © E.A. Crunden

Washington, D.C. © E.A. Crunden

 

 


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Africa. Zimbabwe's fist lady was granted diplomatic immunity after attacking a young model. Sierra Leone is still facing fallout from a mudslide that killed over 500 people. Anti-government protests have plagued Togo. 

Americas. Brazil is opening an Amazon reserve up to mining. Venezuela's chief prosecutor, now a wanted woman, heads to Brazil. Chilean families are working towards accepting transgender children. NAFTA talks are moving...quickly. The bodies of Navy soldiers were pulled from the Pacific Ocean following their ship's collision with an oil tanker. An execution was stayed in Missouri.  Texas' voter ID law suffered a severe blow. Texas was hit with a massive hurricane, which played out as Trump issued a ban barring transgender military service members (and also pardoned Sheriff Joe Arpaio.)

Asia & Australia. China-India relations are still souring by the day. Triple talaq dies in India. The U.S. will now process all non-immigrant visas from Russia in Moscow only. Australia's same-sex marriage debate is STILL ongoing. Indian citizens have a right to privacy, the Supreme Court ruled. North Korea fired another missile. Thailand's former prime minister fled the country.

Europe. Swedish journalist Kim Wall's remains were recovered. Poland is working to boost its military. Russia's ambassador to Sudan is only the latest Russian diplomat to die suddenly. The British government mistakenly told a ton of E.U. citizens they needed to leave.


 

Spoken & Written

“Good luck to everybody. They’re going to be safe. Good luck to everybody. Good luck.” -- President Donald Trump upon being asked if he had any words for Texans facing down a hurricane


Me

Journalism: Trump's plan in Afghanistan may have been prompted by a few other factors. Here's what happens when white supremacy goes viral. U.N. human rights experts slammed the U.S. over racism. I got to chat with Cameron Esposito and Rhea Butcher about Take My Wife. What is Jared Kushner doing in the Middle East? Hurricane Harvey slammed Texas while Trump pardoned Sheriff Joe Arpaio and banned transgender military members. The horrifying legacy of Arpaio.

Anything Goes:

We're away this weekend, back down South, which means I'm surrounded by things more familiar to my younger self than usual. Atlanta's hardly Austin, but there's a strange continuity I've found that exists below the Mason-Dixon Line and I can never put my finger on it. It's hotter, obviously, and the food is better, but there are other things, things I never think about until they're in my face. How the music is the same, for example, or how everyone seems kinder, friendlier, more interested in you, whoever you might be.  There's a familiarity here, one I find natural, easy, and disconcerting.

Meanwhile, my actual home, the one permanently inked on my arm and forever on replay in my head and heart, is seeing one of the most powerful storms to hit the U.S. in recent history. Watching news coverage out of Texas reminds me of a summer years ago, when an oil spill crept along the Gulf Coast, ultimately making its way to that largest and looming of mainland states. I remember that slow creep of fear, and how it felt when the oil finally arrived. No such creep here -- the hurricane has hit and the devastation has been immediate. But that feeling is the same, that dread. Watching and waiting while far away is really the only option in these situations for me now but still. It isn't easier.

Sitting in Atlanta, away from D.C., and watching Texas, I keep thinking about home, space, and impact. How it is all relative and yet, not relative at all. Is space a social construct? I have questions.

 

"Many sides"

Blues Buzz

On being black and brown in Trump country. Why white supremacists go after Jews. On asking Jews to be more anti-Nazi. Liberalism has failed in the face of white supremacy. White supremacy is as American as apple pie. When Pakistan feels like an LA noir. D.C.'s electric cab drivers need help. Greenland is on fire. Skin in the game. WTF IS THIS FRUITCAKE. A changing landscape for abortion rights in Texas. Also in Texas: the death of the "bathroom" bill. Richard Spencer crying. Black, Jewish, gay, and using food as a weapon against bigotry. How many times am I touched in a week? Pakistani doctors are being refused visas to come to the U.S. -- and it's hurting rural health. An open letter to Jews in the U.S., Israel, and everywhere. Adam Serwer on General Lee. Black Charlottesville.

San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden

San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Several people have died in election-linked violence in Kenya. Nigeria's president is still ailing. Over 400 people died during a horrifying mudslide in Sierra Leone. Zimbabwe's first lady turned herself in after allegedly assaulting a woman. A gunman in Burkina Faso killed 18 people in a cafe. Zambia's opposition leader was arrested

Americas. Venezuela vs. the U.S. A fight over land is heating up in Brazil. A white supremacist rally in Charlottesville, Virginia resulted in the deaths of three people, one of whom was killed when a white nationalist hit her with his car (another 19 people were simultaneously injured.) Trump took a long time to condemn the events, then promptly walked his condemnation back. Steve Bannon is out.

Asia. Several members of the White Helmets were killed in Syria. India and Pakistan marked 70 years of independence. A suicide bombing in Pakistan killed at least 15 people in Quetta. Clashes along the India-China border are intensifying. More than 32 people were killed in a day as the Philippines continues its violent crackdown on drugs and crime. "Umbrella" activists in Hong Kong are being jailed. A 10-year-old raped in India and denied an abortion gave birth to her child.

Europe. A freelance journalist may have been murdered in Denmark. Polish activists blocked a far-right demonstration. Thirteen people were killed and over 100 injured when a van plowed into a crowd in Barcelona, Spain; it has been confirmed as an extremist attack. A second attack was confirmed hours later. Another setback for marriage equality in Northern Ireland. Neo-Nazis marched in Berlin.


 

Spoken & Written

“Jews will not replace us!" -- Neo-Nazi white nationalist protesters in Charlottesville, Virginia. 


Me

Journalism: Around the world, condemnation over what happened in Charlottesville has been swift. Before Charlottesville, the Trump administration eliminated funding for an organization working to de-radicalize white nationalists. Amid white nationalist rallies and warring over Confederate monuments, a battle is waging. Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu's son argued leftists are worse than neo-Nazis. At least two politicians want to take down the monuments to white supremacy in the U.S. Capitol. Barcelona's horror. Texas' redistricting battle is just getting started.

Anything Goes:

It was A Week. I wrote about Charlottesville almost every day of it, and now it's the weekend and I'm worn out and down. Most of this week I've spent thinking about trauma and hierarchies and who gets to be hurt and who is allowed to take up space and who is centered and how all of those things shift so much in communities and bubbles. I'm angry at a lot of people right now, alienated from a lot of people right now, and, for the time being, alone; PIC had to travel elsewhere for the weekend. That's meant a lot of time to think and stew (a net positive or negative, I can't really say.) Now it's me and my thesis for the next two days, as well as me and my exhaustion. I have so many thoughts about things to write and no energy. On the bright side, I have found background music for this trying time: The National -- I Should Live In Salt. That's all I've got, really. 

Fire and fury

Blues Buzz

Kamila Shamsie wants to bring Pakistan to a global audience. Partition, 70 years on. The heavy conversation no one wants to have on policing content and who gets to write what. Unlearning the myth of American innocence. Chelsea Manning takes some time to focus on herself. As Seeso shuts down, one of the most inclusive shows on and off camera could be lost. DEFEND LEVAR BURTON. Invisible poems. Please stop calling food "ethnic." 

Istanbul, Turkey. © E.A. Crunden

Istanbul, Turkey. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. Kenyans went to the polls this week, cuing unrest when the country's opposition leader cried fraud. The UN is warning of early genocide signs in CAR. Violence continues to escalate in DRC. Uganda is facing an uptick in HIV transmissions. Jacob Zuma survived yet another attempted ouster -- the South African leader has avoided efforts to remove him for years. In the Niger delta, protesters stormed a Shell crude flow station.

Americas. The Venezuelan government repelled an attack on a military base. Venezuelans are attempting to claim asylum in Mexico. U.S.-Cuba relations get weirder by the day. A mosque in Minnesota was bombed early Sunday morning last week. U.S. journalists are concerned over recent moves by the Justice Department. The U.S. heavily escalated tensions with North Korea. White supremacists marched on Charlottesville, Virginia over the weekend. 

Asia. Pakistan's former prime minister criticized the Supreme Court decision that ousted him. The U.S. is more deeply involved in Syria than most know. Israel wants to ban Al Jazeera. Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu's days may be numbered as a corruption probe builds. Young people in Gaza are unemployed and bored out of their minds. The Philippines could see drone strikes from the U.S. An earthquake in China left over 20 people dead and more than 200 injured. All the U.S.-North Korea drama you could ever want a very unhappy China. The Japanese are frantically buying bomb shelters. Tensions between Cambodia and Laos are growing.

Europe. Russia wants to deport a gay reporter to Uzbekistan. In Poland, a fight over a medieval forest now involves the EU. Britain is under fire for giving arms to the Venezuelan government. Spain is seeing triple the number of refugees as 2016.


Spoken and Written

"North Korea best not make any more threats to the United States. They will be met with fire and fury like the world has never seen...They will be met with fire, fury and frankly power the likes of which this world has never seen before." -- U.S. President Donald Trump


Me

Journalism: Trump still hasn't weighed in on the bombing of a Minnesota mosque. St. Louis is being forced by Missouri to decrease its minimum wage 23 percent -- and activists are fighting back. Chicago and Attorney General Jeff Sessions are clashing over sanctuary cities. The Trump administration can't seem to agree on North Korea. And here's everything you need to know about escalating U.S.-North Korea tensions + with the update that if North Korea strikes first, it will do so without China's backing. SB4 suffered its first big setback in Texas. 

Anything Goes:

When I began grad school, it was with the hopes of furthering my ambitions in journalism. Years spent writing for free were getting me nowhere, and I wanted something tangible, some piece of paper indicating that, yes, I am qualified to do this thing. Almost two years later, the scene has shifted; here I am, a journalist, and my days are the news cycle and quick hits, churning things out and pressing publish as swiftly as possible. That's fine and it's what I wanted, but it does mean school has taken on a different meaning for me. If my job isn't creative writing, then it makes sense that my education might as well be. 

But when it comes to school, time will be up soon. The draft for my thesis is due in around three weeks. There will be a few months of editing and re-writing and anxiety and days spent in coffee shops (a cycle I thought I'd escaped but no, no that never ends, it seems) but then it will be over, finished, and there I'll be, done almost as soon as I started.

I've hated most of grad school, but I've appreciated the liberties it's given me. I wanted to write about home and freedom and anger, and I've been able to do that, even if not to the audience I might have preferred. How will I keep doing that afterwards, when this is done and there is just me and the news cycle and the ebb and flow of the day-to-day? I think about this a lot, more and more as the clock winds down. There are journalists and there are other types of writers, but there aren't many journalists multitasking the way I'd like to, or even making their newsletters the strange cluster that I've made mine. My online presence in general is this way; a friend told me earlier this week that it was a strange hodgepodge of things, just like me, and she was right. There is no rhyme or reason there, no sense of order. I lose followers as quickly as I gain them. I can only imagine the confusion -- when you come for one thing, you do not expect to see so many other, unasked-for offerings. 

Where I am going with this is: how to be everything at once?, and, is that even a possibility?

Global burning

Blues Buzz

The hijacking of the Brillante Virtuoso. Patagonia's Trump resistance. Mikhail Lesin's super ridic death and maybe murder. Those who work and those who don't. The dangerous myth of a singular, unified white South. Charlize Theron is not here to make friends. The podcast boom is forcing podcasts to become more diverse. RIP the wonderful Sam Shepard. Related: My buddy. Human editinggggg. The real legacy of Crazy Horse. Finding solace in the words of furious women. Meat is destroying everything. Alberta's oil workers are in a mental health crisis. Putin isn't a bond villainI Long to Hold the Poetry Editor’s Penis in My Hand. On the Palestinian Occupation. Queering the rural. In the South, climate change is a workplace hazard. BEES. How Ramzan Kadyrov uses homophobia to stay in power.

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San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden


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Africa. A Kenyan election official was found dead ahead of the country's vote. More than 40 men have been arrested in Nigeria for homosexual behavior. Tanzania has a mob problem. Chinese development in Africa continues to vamp up, with Gambia now opening up discussions after the country severed ties with Taiwan. Paul Kegame won a third term in Rwanda.

Americas. Refugees fleeing the U.S. and heading to Canada are overwhelming the country. Civil war might be over for Colombia, but here comes deforestation. Brazil's president survived an attempted ouster. Venezuela's tragedy through the eyes of an outgoing reporter. Related: the country targeted opposition activists following a controversial vote. Trump fired his chief of staff last Friday and his new communications director on Monday. The DOJ wants to go after affirmative action. Mueller has impaneled a grand jury, the latest big update in the Trump-Russia investigation. Trump's truly amazing phone calls (read: horrifying) with the leaders of Mexico and Australia, respectively. 

Asia & Australia. The Iraqi embassy in Kabul was stormed following a car bombing outside. Australia says it foiled a terror plot. Over half of all Australian university students have been sexually harassed. Pakistan has a new (temporary) prime minister. Basically, North Korea is freaking everyone out. China's border dispute with India is just heating up. Israel and Jordan are experiencing increasingly poor relations. The Iran Deal could be in jeopardy, due in large part to the U.S. president. 

Europe. Ireland's parliament laid out a plan for peaceful reunification between Ireland and Northern Ireland. U.S. arms could be sent to Ukraine as relations with Russia continue to worsen. Poland may demand WWII reparations from Germany. Britain seems so unprepared for Brexit that EU officials worry it's a trick. 


 

Written & Spoken

“I won New Hampshire because New Hampshire is a drug-infested den.” -- U.S. President Donald Trump to Mexican President Enrique Peña Nieto. (Trump did not win New Hampshire in the 2016 U.S. presidential election.) 


Me

Journalism: Spotlight on this feature I spent several months crafting with a co-worker, honing in on the ramifications terrible H-1B visa policies (and the Trump administration's ignorance of the entire process) will have not just for the many talented and hard-working people affected but also the U.S. economy and national innovation. 

In other news: Russia responded to sanctions from the U.S. with a mass expulsion of diplomats. Trump's transgender military ban isn't going over very well with Americans (or with Texas oil executives.) Venezuela's democracy has deteriorated even further. Climate change is being cited as a leading national security threat around the world. The NAACP slapped Missouri with a travel advisory. Military figures are taking over the Trump administration. Activists rallied in Texas for transgender and immigrant rights. 

Anything goes:

My thesis is looming and it occurs to me that I hate everything I've written thus far in grad school. A few months off haven't improved that relationship, but I only have a matter of weeks before a draft needs to be finished. Obvious solution: new pieces. But I've always found it impossible to write creatively without either an immediate deadline (think 24 hours, not three weeks) or a pressing topic.

I do have a few pressing topics, actually. Spurred by recent life events I furious poured out 2,643 words on families. How they are not sacred, how they commit acts of violence, how they are forgiven nonetheless. But how to put that out into the world? Not my family, someone else's will be the response. No, your family too. But how to tell people that? If your mother called you fat, that was violence. If your father said your dreams weren't enough, that was violence. Violence can be physical acts, unthinkable words, but it can also be in the day to day, the creeping criticisms. My mother slapped me across the face and beat my ass with a belt back in the day and that was violence, but it was also violent when she told me to suck my stomach in, and that I would thank her one day. (I was six.) Every time she needed to be right (leaving me in the wrong by default), that was violence. Every time she took out her moods on me, that was violence. It's taken me years and states and space to see that. Around me, friends are hurt constantly by their families. But one word observing that and they turn away (the thought being that someone who does not routinely call their parents has no way of understanding; but that is false, far falser than they know, though of course they'll never know. This is the way of things.)

Most of the people in my life will never recognize the violence in their own lives, or how the people they love have hurt them, and how unacceptable that hurt is. But I can't write that, because that is not something people want to read.

You know what people also don't want to read? A long rambling piece about how the planet is warming, and eating meat and tossing plastic and creating waste and failing to reduce or conserve are all tendencies that are furthering that warming and burning and ending along. People don't want to know they can fix things. That's a lot of responsibility. No one likes responsibility. 

Survivor: White House edition

You may have missed last week's newsletter -- if so, it is here.

Blues Buzz

The Big Sick, South Asian identity, and marriage: a rebuttal. Funding the racist right. Mothers who leave their children. Jenny Zhang, sour girl. Climate change means more ships in the Arctic which could be very very bad. The radical potential of queer road trip novels. Female athletes get concussions but we don't know much about that because of course doctors study male athletes. I don't want to watch slavery fan fiction. The teenage whaler's tale. Sperm counts in Westerners are dowwnnnn. Finland is just a bananas place. Man Booker longlist. Sadiq Khan takes on Brexit and extremismPoems. A shameful and cruel ban on people like me. Genrequeer and genderqueer in Alabama. Abstinence-only sex education, assault, and queer kids.

14th St, Washington, D.C. © E.A. Crunden

14th St, Washington, D.C. © E.A. Crunden


Around the Globe (Abbreviated)

Africa. Sexual harassment claims hit Kenya's biggest tech startup. A South African child with HIV appears to have gone into remission following treatment. Christian militias renewed their attacks in CAR. Al-Shabab is now making fun of Trump. Angola deported 300 Congolese undocumented immigrants.  

Americas. Venezuela banned protests ahead of a controversial vote set to determine the country's future. Nine people were found dead in a hot truck in San Antonio, Texas. Native tribes want an increased role in choosing attorneys under Trump. It was a truly horrifying week for queer people in the U.S.: Trump banned transgender military service members in an abrupt tweetstorm, and the Department of Justice indicated LGBTQ workers were not protected by Title VII. Health care repeal efforts failed AGAIN

Asia. Israel said it would remove metal detectors at Al Aqsa following outrage from Palestinians and condemnation from Jordan. India's Supreme Court heard a plea from a 10-year-old in need of an abortion. India v. China over apparently the world's most controversial dirt road. Pakistan's prime minister resigned, concluding a long Panama Papers saga. 

Europe. Poland's president vetoed a controversial laws targeting the judiciary (though another law did pass.) Russia would very much like you to visit Crimea. Italy faces water rationing crisis in Rome. Turkish journalists on trial defended free speech.


 

Written & Spoken

"I’m not Steve Bannon, I’m not trying to suck my own cock." -- Anthony Scaramucci, White House Communications Director


Me

Journalism: Tensions over the Temple Mount continued to escalate. Trump revealed classified information about an operation in Syria on his Twitter account; he also held a deeply bizarre press conference with the prime minister of Lebanon, Saad Hariri. Rexit? Trump's decision to use transgender military members as pawns is already backfiring. Activists say Detroit is in the midst of an ongoing public health crisis. Progressives unveiled a sweeping new effort to shield undocumented immigrants on Friday. 

Anything Goes:

Like most weeks now, it was a long one. Infighting among the people in my life, professional ups and downs, and the general stress of trying to keep above water have proven a challenge. Hunched over my computer at 2:30 a.m. Friday morning dividing my time between CSPAN and Pakistani Twitter updates, it occurred to me that I've lost all sense of time. At one point not so long ago everything seemed to be moving too slowly -- school, work, the speed at which the future was approaching. Now it's mostly here, too much too soon too fast, worsening by the day. In a nod to the times, I pulled my phone out Friday afternoon, wiping off rain (a flash flood was ongoing), only to be sucked in by push notifications. This is how we do things these days.

In other news, I opened my email this week only to realize my thesis is due the second week of August. So, there is that now too. 

 

Born of frustration

Blues Buzz

Lamar Smith goes to the melting Arctic. Maryam Mirzakhani, the first woman to win the prestigious Fields award, a mathematics honor, passed away at age 40. The air we breatheA Wrinkle in Time trailer is here! The U.S. has an infrastructure problem -- it extends to Antarctica. What the actual fuck, R. Kelly. Magic can be normal. The lies we tell ourselves about gentrification. Chester Bennington helped us live. Please allow this absolutely horrifying visual to guide you into the weeks to come.

Looking out on a sliver of Atlanta, Georgia. © E.A. Crunden

Looking out on a sliver of Atlanta, Georgia. © E.A. Crunden

 

 


Around the Globe

Africa. It seems Kenya's deputy presidential race is going not well. The country is also dealing with a severe cholera outbreak. Somalia's internet blackout finally ceased. South Sudan's president declared a state of emergency in his home state. Security forces in Cameroon may have tortured Boko Haram suspects.

Americas. Uruguay weed. A mob of Chilean fishermen set Peruvian immigrants on fire, landing them in the hospital. Venezuelans want their president gone. An Australian woman was shot by police in Minnesota. The U.S. State Department is swiftly closing offices relating to war crimes, cybersecurity, and more. Attorney General Jeff Sessions is in hot water with Trump. The latest GOP plan to repeal Obamacare failed again. Senator John McCain (R-AZ) has brain cancer. O.J. Simpson is out on parole. A jail in Tennessee is offering reduced sentences to inmates who opt for vasectomies or birth control implants. Latest Trump-Russia scene.

Asia. After liberation, Mosul struggles. India's garment workers want better wages. A Chinese-American graduate student from Princeton was sentenced to 10 years in prison in Iran for spying. The United Arab Emirates was accused of interfering with Qatar -- which the country denies. Saudi police arrested a woman for wearing a miniskirt. A top female politician in India quit after being told not to "monopolize" a discussion. China has blocked WhatsApp. Palestinians rioted over Israeli crackdowns in East Jerusalem. Syrians are getting surprising help from Israel, which has shown little love for refugees. North Korea is facing a food shortage.

Europe. Poles protested the right wing creep of the ruling Law & Justice party, which is further marginalizing the judiciary. Turkey marked a year from its controversial coup attempt and Turkey and Germany are in a fight. A flight from Spain was delayed when protesters rallied against the deportation of a Senegalese citizen. Brexit talks are not going amazingly


 

Written & Spoken

“The most innocent victim.” -- a lawyer representing the family of Justine Damond, describing the victim, a white Australian woman killed by police in Minnesota. (Other people killed by police in recent years include young Black children.)

 


Me

Journalism: The Trump administration wants international climate funding to go towards coal. Iraqi and Syrian civilians are dying in droves under Trump. Abortion rights are being rapidly eroded at the state level. The white cop who killed 15-year-old Jordan Edwards has been indicted for murder. Texas progressives are fighting back against an onslaught of horrifying legislation. Poles poured into the streets to defend their democracy, as the far-right Law and Justice (PiS) party works to crack down even further on the judiciary. 

Anything Goes:

A heat wave swept through the city this week, which I should add does not mean the temperature rose twenty degrees from cool to warm, it means the temperature rose from very hot to swelteringly hot. Like a scene out of my central Texas childhood, sidewalks became scorching scenes of carnage while humidity worked to drown passers-by. It's ongoing; as I type the temperature is mounting. We rarely use the air conditioning, but this week it's been on. I wore athletic pants masquerading as their firmer, more oppressive equivalents in an effort to remain comfortable, bringing back my perpetual fears that hips in athletic pants are incapable of being anything but femme. I also avoided the outdoors, which is unlike me, but again, outside was a hostile space, and I avoid hostile spaces whenever possible.

Arguably, everything seemed hostile this week. Maybe it's the heat, but issues seemed to bubble and fester. The blisters have ranged. Two painstaking years have been spent slowly moving towards a greener, sparser life, but the hurdles can seem insurmountable. Waste seemed to follow me throughout the week, with no amount of effort shifting its inevitability. My evangelism didn't go over well, either. On Thursday I attempted to convince coworkers of the problems posed by plastic straws, why they shouldn't be accepted so readily, discarded so easily. (All the plastic in the ocean, in landfills, taking up space and creating catastrophe -- how will we live, where will we live?) "I just hate it when ice cubes hit my teeth," someone said to me, defensive of her straw. (She sucked harder on it, as if to make it clear I had caused irreparable offense.) The same tone was used by a friend as she said to me later, "I just couldn't give up chicken." People, I've found, would rather be complicit in large-scale disaster than shift their habits.

It was also a week where I found myself half-crying on a street to PIC over anti-Semitism yet again -- how it comes from all sides and our friends still say nothing, how I can't say anything on the internet or verbally without pushback, how it creeps and creeps and creeps. How often does existence have to be devalued before those who claim to value it admit they are complicit in the problem? She patted me reassuringly, which is really all she could do, with rain coming down and our umbrella barely doing the bare minimum. Eventually we went to a place marketed as "farm to taco" where wholesome vegetarian food was sold in to-go containers. A mounting pile of waste to go with your earth-friendly meal.

Now, staring down Monday and more heat, I remember that really only a month stands between my body and thesis, that for all my exhaustion now there will be more later. Where did the time go this summer, what was I doing with it? Mostly bemoaning the heat, wishing more people worried about the environment and pushed back on anti-Semitism and racism and sexism and Islamophobia and classism and queerphobia and were kinder and gentler with each other. But that is all summers and all things all the time now, so really I'm not sure that this hasn't all just been business as usual. 

 

Dog days

Blues Buzz

Excommunicate me from the church of social justice. RIP Nelsan Ellis. Who cares what straight people think? A poem. A new metaphor for Israel-Palestine. Federal hospitals fail Native tribes in the U.S. Appalachians are tired of national media coverage so they are doing things their way. Many women of color feel unsafe working in the sciences. Queer celebrities react to the L Word reboot. Gyrocopters. White kids are bullying minorities using Trump's language. Bye bye Larsen C. Gentrification is harming Black residents from East Austin. A friend of mine wrote about how India's trans models want their own agency. The dark side of writing India. D.C. women are returning home to their red states to run for office. The Big Sick is about dating and romance, but it's also about parents and children. The uninhabitable earth. Hungary's squeeze on a Jewish center known for, among other things, supporting queer youth and the minority Roma community, is outrageous. 

A resting spot, San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden

A resting spot, San Francisco, CA. © E.A. Crunden


Around the Globe

Africa. An internet outage is costing Somalia $10 million per day. Zambia's jailed opposition leader wants a dialogue with the government. Bird flu keeps cropping up in South Africa. Djibouti saw the arrival of Chinese troops. A suicide bombing killed 12 people in Cameroon. Nigeria is investigating allegations that almost 100 fisherman were killed in a dispute over fishing fees.

Americas. Former Brazilian president Luiz Inácio Lula da Silva was sentenced to almost 10 years in prison. The former president of Peru is now involved in Brazil's massive scandal. Spyware was used on experts investigating the disappearance of 43 students in Mexico. Mexican authorities are investigating the murder of a Honduran journalist who sought refuge in the country. Latest Trump-Russia fun, thanks to Donald Trump Jr. A major redistricting case in Texas could have huge implications for the 2018 elections. Sixteen people died in a U.S. military plane crash in Mississippi. Senate goes into overtime. The Trump administration has been stopped (for now) from deporting 1,400 Christian Iraqis. Hawaii dealt another blow to Trump's travel ban.

Asia. Iraq has officially declared victory over ISIS in Mosul. Gender-based violence in Ghor province, Afghanistan has swelled. Abkhazia's abortion ban is killing people who can become pregnant. Chinese human rights activist Liu Xiaobo died still under house arrest, the first time such an event has happened since Nazi Germany. Eight people died in a mass-shooting in Thailand. Vietnam jailed a prominent activist blogger. The rise of a new Israeli Labor leader. Qatar's drama continues but it could end soon? Flooding is threatening Indian rhinos, who are being pushed closer to poachers. #CalibriGate, for those who need to be caught up to speed. Jerusalem was rocked by another attack. Five Egyptian police officers were killed close to Cairo. Big Cambodia news.

Europe. London's Camden Market was hit with a fire. Poland's authoritarian government continues to take steps to hinder the judiciary. Same-sex marriage, coming to a Malta near you! Trump spent quality time with his French counterpart, Emmanuel Macron, this week.


 

Written & Spoken

"Recently I took a friend with only a high school degree to lunch. Insensitively, I led her into a gourmet sandwich shop. Suddenly I saw her face freeze up as she was confronted with sandwiches named “Padrino” and “Pomodoro” and ingredients like soppressata, capicollo and a striata baguette. I quickly asked her if she wanted to go somewhere else and she anxiously nodded yes and we ate Mexican." -- David Brooks, who hopefully will never write another column relating to class ever again.


Me

Journalism: Rep. Mo Brooks argued this week that while universal health care is too cost-intensive, tax cuts for the wealthy are important. One new study sharply rebuked a key GOP talking point on Medicaid. Trump's plan to use China to deter North Korea is failing, spectacularly. Judges in Texas this week listened to a redistricting case with major national implications. Last year was the most dangerous on record for environmental activists. Trump is not joking about the solar-powered border wall.


Anything Goes:

Summer is dragging on, draining me the way it always does. Cutting up tomatoes this weekend, one of my few summer joys, I was reminded of a piece I wrote around this time last year for the graduate program I am finally nearly close to done with. Short piece, short prompt. I wrote about summer, how it drains me, and how that summer was particularly draining. Later, it was ripped to shreds by my peers for being too depressing. In a scene reminiscent of my Texas childhood (where a friend once told me I might be happier if I "got a tan"; at the time I was severely burned, the inevitable byproduct of harsh sun on sensitive skin), several classmates took umbrage at my hatred for summer, that most holy of seasons. I would spend the rest of the year cautiously working to avoid "depressing" topics, somehow the only kind I ever really want to elevate -- perhaps why grad school and I are not in sync with one another. 

An aversion to things beloved by others has haunted me. Another winning example is Christmas, which seems strange to reference in July, but there you are. Cherished by the majority in this country, there is a feeling of deep resentment whenever the holiday (nay, season, at this point) comes under fire. Privileged bodies want to believe their treasured pastimes and beloved norms are universal. (Minorities, by contrast, know their holy rituals are not; if they were, we would not be dying at the hands of the majority.)

Summer is a far cry from Christmas is a far cry from other forms of bigotry (sometimes) but every year these things hit me the same way. I had another moment, walking into a bathroom in the building where I work, wearing a pair of shorts, my least-worn clothing item for a number of reasons, not least of all this: As a woman's eyes passed over my legs (covered in a mat of curly, reddish brown hair), I watched her shock register. She left, hurriedly. Another offense I committed this week.

My body, my pleasures, my traditions, my beliefs, my preferences. I grow more stubborn in the summer, a trait I learned in Texas, where summer is most of the year and frail things don't survive. I'm thinking about home a lot these days, as health care battles loom large and gerrymandering sees its day in court. I left home behind for the life of a coastie, and now I'm in 'the swamp,' so to speak. But this piece is still on my mind. If everywhere is Texas, what did I even leave?

So here we are; it is mid-July and the heat is getting to me. 

Post-traveling blues

Blues Buzz

Genderless in Canada. Junot Diaz in conversation with Margaret Atwood. Shakespeare's cure for xenophobia. The queer men who fled Chechnya's purge. Texas is the future of the United States. The Heartland wants more new Americans. Jupiter. A queer migration to the American South. Empathy isn't working. Adam Serwer breaks down what's wrong with Jay-Z's subtle anti-Semitism on 4:44. Judith Butler on Guantanamo. The faces of intermarriage. Russian media coverage of the U.S. and U.S. media coverage of Russia

San Francisco © E.A. Crunden

San Francisco © E.A. Crunden


Around the Globe

(Somewhat shortened this week)

Africa. Al Shabab militants clashed with Kenyan forces. A large group of NGOs asked the Tanzanian government to stop threatening them. Soldiers in Niger killed 14 civilians after mistaking them for militants. Struggling to pay its national budget, South Sudan is seeking donor countries.  

Americas. Overhauling the Bolivian penal code could help abortion activists. Opposition politicians and journalists were beaten by supporters of President Nicolas Maduro in Venezuela's National Assembly, the latest bloody incident to rock the country. #HanAssholeSolo: an explainer for you. A New York City police officer was killed in an assassination-style murder. Hobby Lobby has agreed to give up 5,500 artifacts smuggled out of Iraq. U.S. President Donald Trump finally met with Russian President Vladimir Putin. 

Asia. Everything continues to escalate in North Korea, where an intercontinental missile was successfully tested on Wednesday. Qatar responded to a list of demands from Saudi Arabia and other Gulf states; the feud may stretch into the summer. Indian Prime Minister Narendra Modi visited Israel. A new report contends that Bangladeshi authorities have detained hundreds of people since 2013 and are holding them secretly. Japan has suffered from heavy flooding. Mongolians went to the polls.

Europe. France honored the late Simone Veil, a Holocaust survivor and former health minister who legalized abortion. Russia continues to wade into Syria's war. With the U.S. edging away, Europe is eyeing its own nuclear deterrent. Trump found a friend in Poland's alarmingly far-right government. Turkish police have detained multiple human rights activists. Germany hosted the G20 summit, where mass-protests broke out. Cyprus unification talks have collapsed


Written & Spoken

"Here’s a little economics lesson: supply and demand. You put the supply out there and the demand will follow." 

— Secretary of Energy Rick Perry, who, like myself, seems to have struggled under the weight of Texas' questionable secondary school system


Me

Journalism: A GOP congressman decided to film a political video inside a former gas chamber. Ahead of the G-20 summit, Japan and the E.U. inked a new trade deal, further isolating the U.S. from its allies. Things in Venezuela have gone from bad to worse. France wants to ban fossil fuel-powered vehicles by 2040. G-20 protesters clashed heavily with police, while leaders signaled they were willing to move forward on climate -- without Trump. 


Anything goes:

I spent the last week running around San Francisco, a city full of hills and Canadian tuxedos and sunshine and unexpectedly cool weather. It was an actual vacation, one where I didn't check Slack (often) and allowed at least two days for restful meandering (as opposed to the ambitious multi-day hikes I initially proposed to PIC.) Being there was a rush at times -- chilly winds, the kind I live for, uninhibited queer people (of all types and in all types of pairings, carefree and effortless the way queer people are never allowed to be), and all the niceties I struggle to find so often when we travel (coffee -- the expensive, dark, rich kind I never got in Texas growing up and can now afford, by the grace of Gd; the vegan and vegetarian food my sensitive stomach and nagging guilt demand; access to spaces urban and rural alike with minimal compromise, something that always seems impossible.) But it was also marked by other moments -- sunshine has depressed me my entire life, a phenomenon no one understands but a persistent one and, in California, a perpetual problem.  There was also the nearness of work, the nagging feeling that news was ongoing and I was away from it (forever, that feeling of missing out, or of not doing enough.) And then there was the sense I always have during any time spent off or away -- that it is ending as soon as it begins and soon will be gone.

Either way, it came and went and now I'm back. Post-traveling blues have set in but the comforts of home are also many; I'm alternating between those states of being, surrounded by the farmer's market produce we worship and the neighborhood we never tire of wandering. We spent this weekend on bikes, close to a creek and trees, and at home, combining vegetables and spices in new and savory ways. Eventually summer will end and I will be the gladder for it but for now we have our health and home and I am grateful.